I'm having a baby.....on FRIDAY!!!

So, last Wednesday I had a dr's appointment and found out that labor will be induced on Friday. I have been having high blood pressure and the doctor called it mild pre-eclampsia, which, if left alone can become dangerous. I, of course, am excited, but this is such a huge change in our lives, I am feeling a little nervous as well. Will I be a good mom? Will labor be very very painful, even with an epidural? Will the relationship between Mike and I be different? Are we really ready for this? (this last question is really pointless to even think about....because it doesn't really matter...we are having a baby, we better be ready, but it still goes through my head every day). Then Mike reminds me.....when I stopped taking birth control forever ago, we prayed for God's timing in all this. That yes, we felt we were ready and wanted to begin our family, but that it happen according to God's plan, not ours. So, it took over a year to get to this point, I didn't even think I was pregnant when I found out I was, have had many complications and scares during this pregnancy, and yet I feel very peaceful about it all when I remember who creates life, and who is in control of my life. God must know we are ready and will be the best parents for this little one.....otherwise he wouldn't have blessed us with this life to raise.

Ok...attempt #2...I think this will be better.

So, some friends and I were talking today and I have discovered that I am really more nervous about being a mom than I thought. There are so many outside influences that affect our children and mold them into the teens and adults they will become, that parents have no control over. I have a really difficult time dealing with this. My first reaction to this is to want to keep my kids in a bubble where nothing can hurt them or lead them away from the Lord, but then I think about it and that is the worst thing I could do. That will just make them crazy and rebellious teens or young adults. So, how do I deal with this??? The only thing I have come up with is prayer. Prayer for me not to hold so tightly to my kids, prayer for my kids to have a tender heart and a desire to live as Christ would have them live, and prayer for Mike and me as parents to know how much to hold on and when to let go.....well, that's probably mostly for me :) Thankfully, we are well matched and he helps keep my worries in check. Praise the Lord I have a husband who strives to follow God, and has a desire to raise our family according to scripture.

Here we go....

Well, I am very new to this, and I am at home on bedrest awaiting my next dr's appointment to see if I can go back to work next week, and a friend of mine told me blogging was great and that I should try it. So, here goes nothin. :) I apologize in advance if it's boring, as my life is not so interesting right now.

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Well, I have been sitting here for about 10 minutes and can't think of anything to write about. I guess, I'll try again tomorrow.